Who was I in college? Was I one of those wild and crazy co-eds that partied at pub crawls and dated copious amounts of guys?
Not that it was all that long ago when I was in college. My freshman year at Manhattan Christian College was 2002, and I was 17 years old. Now before you start going “oh, that explains it! You were all goody cause you went to a Christian college” stop right there. I stayed in my dorm room studying while my friends – my MCC friends – partied it up. No, not all of them. In fact the majority of girls in my dorm didn’t party either. We seriously had random acoustic worship services in the stairwell – one girl would play her guitar and the rest of us would all sing. Oh those were so much fun! Much better than puking my guts out.
This is a picture of me with a relative of Elizabeth Elliot and one of the people they ministered too as missionaries. I met them at a Stephen Curtis Chapman concert and it is one of my favorite college memories – Jim Elliot was a martyr on the field and Elizabeth went back to mission work for the same Quichua Indians that killed her husband. Read more about it here.
Am I dodging the question?
Ok, I will tell you what kind of girl I was in college.
I am still that girl today, just a little older and with more wisdom and responsibility.
In college I was ambitious, social, independent, and super self-conscious. I had about 2 super close friends (that I am best friends with today) but longed to be in large groups going bowling or out to bonfires (ha! can you tell we live in a semi rural area?)
I had a huge problem comparing myself to others and always feeling like I came up short. Not good enough – not able to sing as good as her or not invited to as many things as that girl. I wasn’t picked first to lead organizations and it hurt quite a bit, especially since I always thought of myself as a leader.
I had a problem over extending myself. (big shock! I still do that today) I always had a minimum of 3 part time jobs and 15 hours of school plus involvement in clubs.
What about the guys? Ha! I had 2 entire boyfriends before meeting and falling in love for the first time.
Today I am still self-conscious, over booked, social, and extremely bubbly. I have learned to get my comparing to others issue under control. But I seriously still struggle with it. Like when a friend of mine has a kid that sleeps 12 hours straight at 6 months old or has a cleaner house……whatever. I have to physically let it go and tell myself that my life is freaking amazing. Cause it really is!
So who were you in college?
Are you the same today?
I really look forward to these answers. I have a feeling we are the same people just a little older and with a lot less free time!